I’ll admit it – it’s been almost 4 years and I’m still having trouble asking God for safety.
Some days, when I hear people around me include in their prayers a request that God keep certain people safe, a cynical voice in my head says, “Good luck with that.”
I have prayed regularly for the safety of my children since the day they were born. I doubled my prayers for safety when my son, David Glasser, became a Phoenix Police Officer.
Then, on May 18, 2016, Davey was killed in the line of duty.
God did not keep him safe.
So what was the purpose of all of those prayers?
I am totally convinced that God is good.
I know that he loves me and has the best plans for me.
I realize that God’s perspective is completely different from mine and he is always right.
My head knows that God listens to my prayers and responds. He often changes my attitude while I am praying. He gives me insights and answers. He gives me comfort and peace.
My head knows that this world is not a safe place. I am not safe here. You are not safe here. Davey was not safe here.
My head understands that God protected Davey here on earth for 34 1/2 years. I will never know all of the illnesses, incidents and accidents where God kept Davey safe during his years on earth. I had heard about several very close calls Davey had before he was killed. God protected him then.
My head knows that now God has taken Davey home where he is truly safe. It could be said that God answered my prayers.
But my heart doesn’t like that answer. It’s not the answer I wanted. It’s the most painful and heart-shattering answer I’ve ever gotten.
I’m sure I will understand it after I get to my ‘forever home’.
I continue to struggle with asking God for safety.
Miss you, Davey.