My son, David Glasser, was a Phoenix Police Officer who was killed in the line of duty on May 18, 2016

And there are times I just don’t want to acknowledge the fact that Davey is gone. I don’t want to try to find the strength to move forward. I don’t want to face the issues that I have to deal with as I spend the rest of my life here on earth without Davey. I don’t want to visit his spot in the cemetery – I want to pretend it doesn’t exist. I don’t want to think about the reality that so many other Blue families and friends go through this same nightmare.  Too many.

I want to hear his laugh. Just one more time.

I want to see him hug his son and his daughter.

I want to see him playing basketball in his backyard with son and hear him coaching Micah on how to improve his shot. Just one more time.

I want to see him playing Cornhole and Washers with his sister and her husband in his big backyard every time they come to visit.

I want to see him in the car with his son picking up his dad so all the guys could go to Home Depot – they went there ALOT.

I want to go to church and look down our row to see him sitting next to dad and me. Just one more time.

I want to see him on his riding lawn mover with his hat and his headphones on, rocking out to tunes while he cuts the grass. He really loved his lawn.

I want to see him sitting on my couch with our minnie-pin puppy stretched over his chest, her head up by his so she can lay there and lick his neck.  She had a huge crush on Davey.

I want to hear him talking about which Cardinals away game he and the guys are planning to go to this year.

I want to see him wearing the crazy Cardinals hat I bought him as a joke while he tailgates before the game. I want to see his eyes light up as a huge smile spreads across his face when he and his dad light up a cigar out on the green lawn by the Cardinals stadium. Just one more time.

My heart yearns to go back to a time when all these things were possible….. but my brain knows that’s not going to happen.

Miss you so much, Davey.

Love you.