In the early days of this painful journey since my son, David Glasser who was a Phoenix Police Officer, was killed in the line of duty, I realized that I needed to look up….

and focus my eyes on the future. I knew I couldn’t do this alone so I had to look up to God who could give me the strength and wisdom I needed to move forward.

With tears rolling down my face, I had to pick up the pieces of my heart that were smashed and broken when Davey died on May 18, 2016 and figure out my next steps.

Because I was still living….

and there was more life happening.  There was much more ‘life’ coming my way.  And this was true of all of my family, friends and Davey’s squad – everyone who felt some of the light in their world go out on May 18, 2016 still had a life to live.  God had a purpose for why we are still breathing.

I didn’t have to look any farther than my two little fatherless grandchildren to be reminded that their whole lives were in front of them.  They had just begun.  And I wanted to be a fun and positive part of their future.

I looked at my daughter and her family and I knew that we had many great times filled with precious moments ahead.

I published a book on Amazon last year, “Then I Looked Up: Losing a Child, Finding His Legacy of Love”. It’s the story of Davey’s life, the night he died and my journey of finding hope again after losing a child. I have had many great conversations with people since then, listening to their stories and sharing what I’ve learned. It’s conversations like this that remind me that the future is a good place it be. Grief and loss are a part of all of our lives and we can help each other not feel alone as we figure out how to deal with the big hole in our lives.

In the middle of all the pain and loss and grief of this journey, I have found that moving positively into tomorrow is worth it. I haven’t left Davey behind – I have taken him and all of my cherished memories of him with me. He loved people and he was all about having fun.  He would want us to fill our days with love, making new memories.

Davey will always be a part of what is happening – even in the future.  Because he is a part of us.

And we will never forget.

Miss you, Davey.

Love you