It’s Not Stopping

On By Judy GlasserIn When the Worst Happens

I have lost so much. And it doesn’t stop.

My son, David Glasser, was a Phoenix Police Officer killed in the line of duty on May 18, 2016. When Davey died, he took all of my plans and dreams for the rest of my life with him. He was included in all of them and a central character in many.

They were all ripped away. I’ve been on a journey of creating revised plans and dreams these last 9 years. It hasn’t been easy. It’s nothing I wanted to do but it needed to be done. God has a purpose for why I am still here so I move forward, one painful step at a time.

My daughter, Katie, and I went to Rome together a couple of years ago and got on a cruise ship that toured the Greek Isles. It was fun and we made a boatload (pun intended) of new, precious memories.

But my heart broke a little more every time I thought about the last time we were in Rome – Davey had been with us. Almost 20 years ago, my whole family toured Italy for 2 1/2 weeks. That family is no longer whole because we’re missing a main person – Davey.

We just keep losing.

That’s what so different when a child dies . Davey should be here – right now. I was not supposed to go to his funeral, he was supposed to go to mine. He would have been a part of everything that has happened the last 9 years. He should have had a part of everything that will happen in my life until I leave this planet.

It’s a very tough journey. If you are interested in reading more of my story, I published a book awhile back on Amazon, “Then I Looked Up: Losing a Child, Finding His Legacy of Love.” Or you can send a message and I’ll mail a signed copy to you.

Sometimes its hard to keep a positive attitude about tomorrow knowing that I’m just going to keep losing what should have been. I’m getting used to life without Davey but I don’t like it. I’m getting used to losing more every year –

but I don’t like it.

Miss you, Davey.

Love you.

5 thoughts on “It’s Not Stopping”

  1. Unknown's avatar Anonymous

    Dear Judy,

    I just read about your son Davey, and my heart immediately connected with your words – especially when you said the missing out never stops. I understand that truth deeply, and I know I’m going to miss out and her falling in love, starting a career, getting married, and having possibly children. The milestones that should have been are sometimesthe hardest to carry. Your family story of bleeding blue resonates so much with ours. While Alivia wasn’t a police officer, she bled blue in her own way, as always being proud to be a Whitesboro warrior and serving her community not only by being a junior auxiliary member for our Whitestown Legion post, but for caring for any animal that may be a need. she wasn’t accomplish student, athlete, a passionate advocate for animals, and a tireless volunteer in our community. she gave everything she had to the people And causes that she absolutely loved. I would be so honored to read your book and learn more about Davie’s legacy and how you’re navigating this journey. thank you for sharing your story, and for given voice to with so many of us feel but struggle to express.

    with deep understanding and respect,

    Virginia “Alivia’s Mom”

    The Livi Strong Foundation

    💙💙

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    1. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Love sounds like she definitely had a heart of a public servant. I would love to sign a copy of my book and send it to you. Many people have told me that it helps them to read what I write because I put words to their emotions and they don’t feel alone in their grief. So sorry you lost your daughter. It’s the toughest thing that can happen to a parent.
      I’ll send you a message about the book.
      Love you, Virginia💙💙

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