Not the Right Answer

I’ll admit it – it’s been over 5 years and I’m still having trouble asking God for safety.

Some days, when I hear people around me include in their prayers a request that God keep certain people safe, a cynical voice in my head says, “Yeah, good luck with that.”

I have prayed regularly for the safety of my children since the day they were born.  I doubled my prayers for safety when my son, David Glasser, became a Phoenix Police Officer. Then, on May 18, 2016, Davey was killed in the line of duty. God did not keep him safe.  So what was the purpose of all of those prayers?

I am totally convinced that God is good. I know that he loves me and has the best plans for me. I realize that God’s perspective is completely different from mine and he is always right.

My head knows that God listens to my prayers and responds.  He often changes my attitude while I am praying.  He gives me insights and answers.  He also gives me comfort and peace.

My head knows that this world is not a safe place.  I am not safe here.  You are not safe here.  Davey was not safe here.

My head understands that God protected Davey here on earth for 34 1/2 years.  I will never know all of the illnesses, incidents and accidents where God kept Davey safe during his years on earth.  I had heard about several very close calls Davey had on the job before he was killed.  God protected him then.

My head knows that now God has taken Davey home where he is truly safe.  It could be said that God answered my prayers.

But my heart doesn’t like that answer.  It’s not the answer I wanted.  It’s the most painful and heart-shattering answer I’ve ever gotten.

I’m sure I will understand it after I get to my ‘forever home’.

Until then,

I continue to struggle with asking God for safety.

Miss you, Davey.

Love you.

8 responses to “Not the Right Answer”

  1. ❤️🙏


  2. May God continue to bless you and your family Judy. May you feel the strong sense of His presence each and everyday. I expect when you see Davy in heaven it will seem as if no time has passed at all, and instantaneously you will have no recall of all the pain and suffering you experienced over the loss of your sweet “boy”.


    1. Thank you, Laurie💙💙


  3. Love you Judy. Keep on writing – you do such an amazing blog and can’t tell you how often your blog and testimonies have given me continued faith, hope and love even when I feel so lost in the world we are living in. 💙💙💙💙💙


    1. Thank you for your love and encouragement, Cindy. Great to see you last week! Love you💙💙


  4. Ohhhh mama…I get this! Ohhh my heart!


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