It has been hard to be thankful these last 5 1/2 years. My son, David Glasser, was a Phoenix Police Officer who was killed in the line of duty on May 18, 2016. This has been the most difficult time of my life. There has been so much pain and sorrow.
So many tears.
Did you catch it? Last week I blogged that I was thankful and this week I’m saying it’s hard to be thankful. Am I confused? No. Many of us who have survived a tragedy live on this roller coaster of grief. Good days, bad days. Good old memories, recent memories where somebody very important to me is missing. Smiling one minute, tears running down my face the next. Thankful, then not feeling so thankful.
It’s hard to be thankful when there is this huge hole in my life where my son, Davey, used to be.
Smiling, joking, making plans – he brought his own unique light into my world. He was great at adding new, fun people into our lives. He always had room for one more – or ten more – friends in his life.
It’s hard to be thankful when I see how our culture is treating my Brothers and Sisters in Blue.
Hunting you down.
It feels like all the crazies of the world have been let loose on one target – and that target wears blue.
Evil keeps crawling out of the smelly, rotten holes it was hiding in – showing us all again why we so desperately need our Family in Blue to stand up for what’s right.
And then it becomes even harder to be thankful when I think of the families, friends and co-workers of all of our fallen brothers and sisters.
I’ve been there.
I am there.
It’s not a place you ever want to be.
And the number of us is growing quickly. Much too quickly. The dark cloud of sadness is moving over more and more of our Blue Family.
Each news report of every fallen officer brings it all back.
The horrible reality.
then…… here comes the roller coaster ride….
when I think about the very special gift I was given 40 years ago,
it’s very hard not to be thankful.
When I focus on the over-34-years that I was blessed to have Davey in my life, its hard not to smile.
And I’m thankful for every minute.
I’m thankful to my Father God who has been walking closely beside me through this dark time – comforting me and drawing me closer to him.
I’m also thankful for our many family members and friends who have loved us and cared for us and are still praying for us today. We share awesome memories of Davey.
I’m very thankful for our Family in Blue who continues to show up and care for us and pray for us. We share awesome memories of Davey as well and, together, we are strong enough to face tomorrow.
Together, we can be thankful for what we had…
and what we still have…..
on this weekend of Thanksgiving.
Miss you , Davey.