In fact, you probably need to write several letters.
These letters are for the people you love most so they can have something tangible to hold and read and read again after you aren’t here anymore.
These letters might be full of things you have already told them. Or you may be able to write some things that you’ve never been able to say or haven’t said in a long time. There might be some specific encouragements that you want to share with them knowing that they are grieving your loss as they read this letter.
Our soldiers who are going off to war or being deployed to dangerous foreign countries have always been pretty good at doing this. It’s a normal thing that they are encouraged and reminded to write letters before they leave.
It’s not so true for our brothers and sisters in Blue. I guess it’s just a more obvious thing to do when you’re getting on a plane to Iraq than it is when you’re getting into your car to go to the precinct.
But the danger is just as real. If we weren’t super-aware of the danger before, this last year has made the possibility of you never coming back a reality for a whole big crowd of us.
My son, Davey, a Phoenix Policeman who was killed in the line of duty last year, didn’t leave any letters. I wish he had. I would have loved to have a final letter from him to hold…and read….and hold. I have his last Mother’s Day card to me framed on my dresser. It’s an awesome last message and I will treasure it for the rest of my life.
We know he loved us. We know what he would say about a lot of things that have happened since his death. But to have something tangible……knowing he knew we would be reading it if he didn’t come back one day. That would have been very special.
So – Blue Family – we need to write some letters. All of us. Because none of us are promised tomorrow.
I have to admit – I only recently started writing mine even though I’ve been thinking about it for a long time. They aren’t easy to write – I used a lot of tissues and I’ve only got half of them written. My goal is to get the rest safely tucked in our personal safe at home within the next two weeks. So they’re ready for that time. Whenever it comes.
If I stay on earth another 15 – 20 years I will probably write some more and add them to the pile. I want those I love to have this last gift from me…
and read again.
How about you? Have you written your letters yet?