Surrounded By the Rubble

I’m standing here …..

surrounded by the rubble of my dreams.

They were my dreams for the future of my son, David Glasser, who was a Phoenix Police Officer killed in the line of duty on May 18, 2016.

There are times when the piles of my broken hopes and plans overwhelm me.  There are so many good times with him that have been snatched from my life.  So much happiness and so many smiles that will never be.

Davey planned to retire from the Police force and get his teaching certificate.  He wanted to teach in high school and coach high school basketball.  He would have been an awesome teacher and an even greater coach.  I witnessed some of his potential when Micah, his son, grew old enough to start playing in various sports leagues.  Davey was always beside him during water breaks, giving him tips and encouraging him.

Unbelievable.  So much has been lost.

Davey was always the responsible oldest child.   He cared for his father and I – making sure we were doing well and getting any help we needed.   A couple of months before he was killed, my husband and I had rented an RV in Denver for a week and then drove it from Denver down to Phoenix.  Davey was not happy when he found out we had gotten back and we hadn’t let him know we were safely home.  He took his responsibilities seriously.

A couple of months before that I was driving my car with a donut (spare tire) because I had had a flat tire and couldn’t find the time to get it fixed.  He refused to let me drive my car to work on the freeway because donuts were not made to go that fast.  It’s not safe.  He insisted that we switch cars and he got my tire fixed for me while I went to work.

He was supposed to be here beside his dad and I as we move into the fall of our lives.  He was supposed to grow old with his wife.  He was supposed to coach his children’s sports teams and proudly watch them graduate from high school.  Then he was planning to happily watch them graduate from ASU (if he got his way).   We were supposed to share the joy of weddings and his grandchildren with him.

But it’s all gone.

Only the painful rubble of my dreams is left.

I’m standing here because I’m not sitting. I’m not getting stuck in the rubble.

I’m still here because God has a purpose for me.  I discovered that one of God’s plans was for me to write a book about this journey – “Then I Looked Up: Losing a Child, Finding His Legacy of Love”. It includes the parts of my story that I’ve never blogged about and was just published on Amazon.

It’s obvious that I’m not done yet.  So I’ll keep moving forward, going where God leads me until he calls me home –  where there are no tears, no grief, no rubble.

MIss you Davey.

Love you.

5 responses to “Surrounded By the Rubble”

  1. Janie Mariscal Avatar
    Janie Mariscal

    Judy, I just finished reading your book recommended by my daughter. She said, “mom read this book, it’s your story, so much of what you’ve said after Robert’s passing (my son) is in her book”. My son was killed in the line of duty 3/2/22. When I lost my son I never questioned God, I thanked him. Thank him for giving me 43 wonderful years of being his earthly Mom before going home to his Heavenly Father.
    I know my son Robert and your Davey are in a better place waiting for us!


    1. So sorry that you are on this tough road with me Jamie. Yes, our boys are in their perfect home and we will see them again someday. Love you💙💙


      1. Janie. Sorry💙💙


  2. Abby Hunsberger Avatar
    Abby Hunsberger

    I am reading your book now. I can’t imagine the pain you must feel but this much I know. You are right in knowing God has a plan for You. I am only 1 of the many who has been touched by your Hope in knowing Davey is in Heaven where you will be united with him for all eternity. May you continue to feel Gods peace which surpasses all understanding. 🙏🏻


    1. Thank you so much for your encouragement, Abby! Let me know what you think of the book when you get done reading it💙💙


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