My son, David Glasser, was a Phoenix Police Officer who was killed in the line of duty on May 18, 2016.
These last 4 1/2 years have been the most difficult and painful time of my life.
One of the ways God has comforted me is through this truth – ” A person’s days are determined; you have decreed the number of his months and have set limits he cannot exceed.” Job 14:5.
God has already decided which day will be the last day of your life here on earth and mine.
Knowing this helped me let go of my mother when she passed away 16 years ago. We had a very close relationship and she was my role-model for how a Christian woman lives her life faithful to God – all the way to her last breath here on earth. I realized, if God wanted her in heaven with him, then that’s what I wanted for her. She was an awesome grandmother to my children and this picture of her with Davey brings back great memories of all of my mother’s famous cinnamon rolls we ate together. We only had one rule – nobody counted how many rolls anybody ate. If there are cinnamon rolls in heaven, you can bet that these two are still gobbling down a bunch of these together today.
Fifteen years ago I found myself in ICU with twelve blood clots in my lungs. Have you ever seen a doctor look scared when they tell you this is a life-threatening situation? Laying in the emergency room, I heard God clearly tell me that I wasn’t going to die from this. Later, five doctors kind of looked at me in awe and told me the blood clots should have killed me.
It just wasn’t my day.
I know that God has reasons for picking May 18 as Davey’s final day here on earth. I may never understand those reasons but I trust God. And, since God wants him in heaven, that’s what I want for Davey.
Knowing that this date was determined before Davey was born helps me avoid needless regrets like –
- I wish he hadn’t gone on that call.
- It wouldn’t have mattered. This was his day.
- I wish he hadn’t gone to work that day.
- It would have happened no matter what he was doing.
- I wish he hadn’t been a police officer.
- He was born to be a police officer and he died honorably, serving his community and doing what he loved to do. He wouldn’t have wanted to live or die any other way.
It was decided. There is no ‘wishing’ something else had happened. God decreed the number of Davey’s days here on earth and then he took Davey home.
Now, standing on a foundation of God’s love and strength and grace, I am figuring out how to move forward. I am still here because God has a purpose for me and that’s what my life needs to be about until the day God has already determined when he will come to bring me home.
I don’t know all the details of my future but meanwhile, through the tears, I’m focusing on loving God and loving other people.
A bigger chunk of my heart is now in heaven with you, Abba Father.
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