It’s Here

May is here and it’s a tough month for me. My son, David Glasser, was a Phoenix Police Officer who was killed in the line of duty in May 2016. His official End of Watch is May 19 but, if you’ve read my blogs you know I often use May 18th as the day he was killed because he was gone by the time I saw him in the hospital. Machines kept his body functioning until the next day so we could say goodbye and he could fulfill his wish of being an organ donor. But the awesome son, husband, father, brother and friend that we all knew was not in that hospital bed.

May 18th will forever be the worst day of my life. We always do something to commemorate Davey’s official EOW – May 19th – which works for me because the worst day – May 18th – is behind me by then.

May starts out with Mother’s Day. Bitter sweet. I am so grateful for having 34 years with Davey, I am so thankful for our daughter and her family here in Denver and I am hugely blessed to have 4 adorable grand darlings. But Mother’s Day is not all flowers and smiles for any mother who has lost a child. The hole in our lives is bigger on Mother’s Day.

And, of course, my Blue Family knows that May 15th is Peace Officers Memorial Day. So 4 days before Davey’s official E.O.W our whole Blue Family is remembering and honoring all of our fallen heroes. Too many men and women have died serving their communities. Too many families are going through the nightmare we are going through. Too many lives blown apart.

I’m sure you can start to understand why May is an especially hard month for me.

Last year my husband I went to Washington, DC and spent several hours on May 15th at the Law Enforcement Officers Memorial where Davey’s name is engraved. Police Week was moved to October last year but we wanted to visit the memorial in May. 38 – W:30 is Davey’s spot in case you ever visit the memorial.

The good news in May is my wedding anniversary with Dave, my husband, on the 23rd. Forty-one years this year. I’m grateful that our anniversary is at the end of May. It is a light at the end of a dark tunnel of remembering and it gives us something positive to celebrate. It is an accomplishment to be proud of, especially because together we have survived the worst thing that can happen to a parent. Our anniversary reminds us that our marriage has been one of our anchors in the continuing storm of missing Davey.

The main thing that has helped me keep moving forward through the roller coaster of pain and grief that has defined my life these last almost 6 years is getting as close to God as I possibly can. God remains my Rock as he shows me how to survive with a heart that was smashed on May 18, 2016. I spend many hours each week with my Bible open on my lap, listening and talking to God.

The amount of hours I spend with my Father will be going way up in May.

Miss you, Davey.

Love you.

10 responses to “It’s Here”

  1. Keeping you both in my prayers. I can only imagine the heart hole that you feel, missing Davy.
    Hugs, your sister in Christ

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    1. Thanks, Kathy. Love youπŸ’™πŸ’™

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  2. My heart and prayers are always with you, no I have not lost a child and I pray every day I never do. I can not say I know how you feel , I will not say that. I know as the mom of a former Phx Police officer the worry , the fear, and the many many sleepless nights. I know the racing heart and then skipping a beat as you hold your breath , when ever you hear of a police involved shooting. My son was also in one. But it was not my sons life taken that day. At least not that day. I won’t get into the story as I can almost bet Davy mentioned him during the time he was fighting the courts for his life. I do want to thank you for raising such a wonderful son, I never met him but I know a lot of the officer who did, I held a couple as they cried for Davy, Chris Mays, Diane, AJ , Mike and others I can’t remember all the names. But I was told how much they loved him, even a couple said they wished they could trade places. But God needed Davy home. For what ever reason, we’ll never know. But this we know God knows our path of life, how long, how short. Davys was way to short . But again God needed him to come home at that time. We should be envious of his, as he gets to look into the EYES of Jesus, he gets to walk besides him. Something we all hope and pray for. Davy is an amazing angel that is watching over you and your family everyday, along with watching over his brothers and sisters in blue. I thank you for raising such a wonderful son. God Bless you and yours . You are forever in my heart and in my prayers. I love to keep up on all your letters, an accomplishment. Thank you: Nancy Spinner

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    1. Thank you for your encouragement and prayers, Nancy. Love youπŸ’™πŸ’™

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  3. I will be praying for You and your husband the month of May. Your sharing brings me Hope.

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    1. Thank you for your prayers, Abby.πŸ’™πŸ’™

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  4. Many hugs and lots of love always coming your way through the emails, texts and through our rare visits. I still remember the day that I got the call from Cousin Peggy as we were driving back to Minnesota for the summer months. She told us about Davey being shot and asked for prayers for his family. It still brings tears to my eyes to think about the horror this day was for you. I am so glad you have GOD to bring you through each day. Davey watches over you as a beautiful Angel but the pain of May Memories is overwhelming; I am sure. I am thinking of you and Dave and your entire family this month. Love you.

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    1. Thank you, Cindy. Love youπŸ’™πŸ’™

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  5. My prayers are with you and your family. May your son Rest in Heavenly Peace

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